Not an Ending

As I’ve told you all before, Chase and I are moving to NC in a few short months. We began the discussion of moving last year, but our decision was made final by a series of events that led to myself inheriting property from a family member. The specific details will remain private, but basically, we have a house waiting for us in NC.

When it first became a possibility that we would be getting a house, my head was filled with nothing but excitement at the idea of Chase and I fixing up and re-decorating our first home together. Once everything was confirmed this past June, I still felt excitement, but the first inklings of sadness began to creep into my consciousness. As D-day, or perhaps M-day, gets closer and closer, the voices of regret grow louder and are drowning out all of the positivity I had built up.  My thoughts are filled constantly with everything that I’ll miss:

Wandering down to my neighbor’s apartment for an after-work cocktail.

Heading to In-N-Out with Chase where we order Animal Fries, extra crispy, and eat them on our couch while watching silly TV shows.

Planning last minute sushi nights with my girlfriends and laughing so loudly we disturb the table next to us.

Grilling out with friends in and sipping cocktails on patios in February.

All of the friendships that we have made here in CA. I ache every time spend time with a friend and realize that soon we won’t be close to one another.

When I read about other bloggers that are in the process of moving, they  write as though the entire experience is nothing but rainbows and unicorns, and I don’t understand why I seem to be alone in feeling that moving means leaving friends, favorite places, our first apartment. It should be a new beginning, but it feels like an ending.

I realize of course that there are many people out there that would love to have my problems. Inheriting a house is not something that warrants complaint in the times we live in, and I do try to count my blessings whenever those sad feelings creep in. I’m sure it will pass soon, and I know that there are good things coming to quiet them down. I must try to live in the moment, with the constant chant in my head that this is not an ending; it is a beginning.

This is a beginning. This is a beginning. This is a beginning.

As always, thanks for reading xoxo

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6 Thoughts on “Not an Ending

  1. JanS on September 25, 2012 at said:

    I don’t know you at all, but thought I’d mention — check out She moved to Alabama not long ago and seems to be adjusting. (I *know* Alabama is not N. Carolina, but still…when you are on the West Coast, it seems all the same.) Good luck, girl. Not that you need it. You’ll be fine.

  2. Tere on September 25, 2012 at said:

    You’ve made some wonderful memories in CA. Who wouldn’t be torn? A new set of memories will be “under construction” in NC. Selfishly, I’m looking forward to sharing a glass of wine and hopefully tasting your cuisine creations a couple of times a year. (And can’t wait to see what you do with the house! It’s a great one.)

  3. We just moved to NC from AZ. Woah, culture shock! Things really are different…and yeah, no in n out, I hear ya on that one! We will also miss certain things at grocery stores, other restaurants and our family and friends. But moving here has been amazing. We moved out here in an rv…spent 83 days in it. The five of us…as well as 3 cats and two dogs. Yep. It was not fun. Only the first week when we were driving across the country. Once we got to the rv park in NC…it settled in that we had to spend time there until we got into a house…FINALLY got into our house at the beginning of September and we are so happy and thankful.
    Getting used to how they do things and even say things in NC has been fun.. 😉 Not sure what party of NC you are moving to, we are outside of the Durham area in the middle of nowhere.
    I wish you good luck and will let you know that there will be good coming out of it, even if there aren’t any in n outs here. 😉

    • Caroline on October 2, 2012 at said:

      Thanks Jennifer! We’re moving to the western part of the state, but I have family near Durham and its a great area! Glad to hear things are going well with you, hopefully we’ll have a similar story to tell :)

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